Creative Block is a newsletter that gives you a glimpse into my life, creativity, design, and music. It's like a little pick-me-up that you get delivered straight to your inbox.
I’ve been designing, photographing, creating for years now. And in that time, I’ve made so much that has helped other people feel seen. That’s always been the heart behind the work.
But if I’m honest, sometimes it’s still hard to see myself. To really believe the work is good Great. To believe I’m good at what I do. Not just talented, but worthy. Steady. Enough.
There are moments when people compliment what I make, and I catch myself shrinking inside. Nodding, smiling, but silently thinking, “They’re just being nice.” “They don’t really mean it.” “They’ll forget tomorrow.”
It’s something I’ve been slowly unlearning (the way I downplay my own impact). I found myself walking through the world with disclaimers, trying to soften my presence before anyone else gets the chance to question it not knowing that I’m the only one that sees myself that way most time.
Maybe it’s my upbringing. Maybe it’s imposter syndrome. Maybe it’s just the nature of being a sensitive creative in a world that rewards constant output.
But I’ve realized this… when you spend most of your life making sure others feel seen, you have to be intentional about seeing yourself, too.
As a Christian, I know God made me with purpose. My black skin wasn’t a mistake. My gifts aren’t a mistake. I was chosen to leave an impact in this world and point people back to the creator. You have to be intentional about seeing yourself. You are more than your success and failure.
I’m learning to honor my process. To be present with what I’ve made. To stop moving the goalpost every time I reach something I once prayed for.
So today, I’m choosing to see myself. Fully. Without shrinking. Without apology.
Well, if i’m being honest, I’m trying to but I do know this…
I exist create space for people who are trying to find their creative voice.
my friend
really helped me see that this week.
And I plan to continue doing what I’m doing and receive the love, the praise without shutting it down.
If you’ve been struggling to do the same, I hope this gives you permission.
You are not invisible. You are not behind. You are here. And You matter.
A word I didn't know I needed today. Thank you!
Also, it's not only your work that makes an impact, but the WAY you work. I was on your live a few months ago and not only was I so happy to see what you were working on (PS: I'm still waiting on those cardigans to drop!! 👀), but it was great to see YOU excited about what you were working on and wanted to share with us AND get our feedback. I enjoyed your work (both artistic and writing) before, but that day, I became a FAN! So, yes, you matter.
This made me feel seen: “Maybe it’s just the nature of being a sensitive creative in a world that rewards constant output.“
Also, I really like how you’re weaving more of your faith into these newsletters. I think it’s great to be missional with your work and also have God be the center of your creative process as a believer :)